Forever

It doesn’t bring her back.

Nothing.

I miss you more than you would have ever imagined.

I miss the laughter.

I miss the jokes.

No one else understood the jokes.

You did. That’s all that mattered.

Now then, why can’t I understand?

Come back.

Come back.

I need you.

How can the person who brought the most laughter and joy to my life not be here?

You were here just two months ago, and before you left I talked to you.

Only six days prior.

What is it?

Why don’t I understand?

The times you visit in my dreams are now what I look forward to the most.

Those nights are the happiest.

Now.

Not before.

Before, I knew you were here

And I loved you.

I loved knowing I could call.

Whenever I wanted.

Knew you were not far away.

And knew you were coming to see me in just a few days.

What happened?

Where are those days now?

Forever unfulfilled.

Forever in my memory.

Forever I will love you.

Forever I will miss you.

Forever.

Forever seems so far.

Forever I will pray to see you again.

Forever.

Forever will you think of me?

Can you?

I hope so.

I hope for forever to be quite fast.

I don’t think it will be.

I hope anyway.

Will you watch me?

Will you stay with me?

Will you visit me, or see me forever?

Then why can’t I see you?

Life is not fair.

That’s what they always say.

Then maybe…

Maybe that’s why yours is over.

Over so now you have fair times.

You know fair and happiness now.

I hope.

You do.

Don’t you?

Or why else did you go?

Are you laughing now?

I hope you are.

I heard laughter makes you live longer.

But not for you.

You laughed everyday.

So where have you gone?

Why?

But you laughed!

What.

What will make it ok?

I’ve been waiting to know.

I never will.

I miss you.

I need you.

I love you.

I will continue to hope.

I will.

Forever.

Lovingly written on April 24, 2008 by Erin Harkness in memory of her cousin Kristin Harkness who passed on February 22, 2008.