Butterfly

--KB (2004)

By Karin Bookbinder

In memory of her nephew, Adam Lewkowitz

Just when you think

There are no more tears left

To cry

Another wave

Of remembering

This actually happened

He is really gone

And, everything says….NO!

Relentless, it seems

The stream of thoughts turn again

The shock wave hits

In the glimpse of a photograph

Or, a memory bubbles to the surface

Of the mind’s tides

And, crashes hard against the walls

Of this broken heart

Making the desperate sound….NO!

Just can’t believe….

How this could have….

Why didn’t I….

What are we going to….

How do you go on?

I don’t know

But, maybe this….

Maybe somewhere in time, beyond time

There will be something else to replace the NO

To soften the blows

Gently sew the heart with silken strings

And, still the minds waters

To whisper softly

Softly

So, we can hear

Miss you, love you, always with you

And the spirit shifts

The eyes blink open

A butterfly takes flight

And, changes to the no to something else

Maybe not an affirmation, not a YES

Maybe not goodbye

Perhaps this….

Just a wordless sigh………………..

Of a LOVE that never dies.